I realize as I'm staring here at the page that I'm not exactly sure of what I should write about. I haven't been writing fanfiction. I haven't really been writing anything lately. Though I'm slowly getting back into the grove, thankfully.

I checked my fanfiction e-mail for the first time in more than six months today. It absolutely amazes me that there are people out there that still read my work, even though it's been so long since I've updated anything. And I still get reviews, which I absolutely love. I keep telling myself that I need to start writing fanfiction again. But I'm just not sure what I'd want to write about. I think I'm tapped out of Harry Potter. As much as I love the series, the desire to write fanfiction for it since the last book came out is nil. And it's almost been four years since it's release. (Hard to believe!)

I've been playing Lord of the Rings Online for the last 6 months or so. Read the books for the first time once I got into the game. I'd seen the movies, knew the story, but never had read the books. There's so much that could be explored in facfiction. Perhaps I'll give that a whirl. Might need to read them again though before I'd feel comfortable enough to write anything. We'll see.

In other things, life keep's on keeping on. I'm currently working part time as a nanny for two girls. It's not as bad as it sounds, really! I'm actually thinking about looking for more work like that. I don't mind babysitting, or nannying, or whatever you want to call it. The pay isn't horrible at all. It's certainly helping to pay the bills while I continue my search for full time employment.

So that's the State of Kerrymdb at the moment. I'm hoping that I start updating more often and don't just pop in every 6 months or so. Fingers are crossed!

So premiere week is almost here. I actually own a TV now (thanks to a bday gift from my sis) which means I may watch some shows here and there. Of course, I have a few staples.

The Big Bang Theory This is my favorite show at the moment. Though I'm worried about the whole idea of a Sheldon/Amy relationship. Here's hoping the writers do a good job and hopefully set up the endgame Sheldon/Penny relationship. :D

Community I absolutely adore this show and am heart broken that it's now competing head to head with Big Bang Theory. Not so thrilled with the Jeff/Annie finale, but I'm sure the writers will explain that away somehow.

How I Met Your Mother I'm beginning to be on the fence about this show. I loved the idea of Robin/Barney, but the writers completely messed that up. And I'm sort of ready to met the mother already. This is season six people! Enough. Where's the mom. :)

30 Rock Season four certainly wasn't the best. I'm really hoping that season five brings it back to form. Is it wrong to hope that Matt Damon sticks around for a while?

The Good Wife I only saw a couple of episodes at the end of the season, but I liked what I saw. I'll probably try to start watching every week.

Raising Hope This is the only new show that I'm excited about. The trailer looks funny and meaningful. Hopefully it'll live up to expectations!

Link facebook and livejournal? What is this madness? Do. Not. Want.

I just joined a writer's group! Yay! It's called Write Club, and you guessed it, the first rule of Write Club is never talk about...

Oops!

Ah well. The first meeting isn't until next week, but I'm looking forward to this. I've never actually belonged to a writer's group before so it should be interesting. And if it helps me finalize my screenplay so I can start sending it out, so much the better.

It's so nice to be excited about writing again!

So I fail at updating these days. A friend was asking about my fanfic and it dawned on me how not involved I am with the fandom anymore. And it made me sad. This fandom meant everything to me at one point and I'd like to get a sense of that back.

Of course, that would require me to write again. My writing (in any form) has been non-existent lately. I'm hoping to change that soon. I've moved into a 2 bedroom apartment with my sister and her boyfriend. It's a gorgeous apartment with a private sun deck. I have every intention to start bringing up my laptop and write outside when it's nice out. Which, considering I live in LA, is almost everyday.

My career goals have also started to change a bit. While the ultimate goal is to sell a screenplay and ideally actually make money writing, the getting to that part has changed. Perhaps it's because I'm getting older (I still can't believe I turned 31 two weeks ago), but I don't think I'm going to be satisfied just taking any job because it's a job until I hit the lotto and sell a screenplay. Obviously, for my financial sake, that's what I have to do right now. But I was really thinking what in the entertainment industry would be creatively satisfying. The answer surprised me.

Costumes.

I love to sew. I love designing my own crocheted items. Why in the world couldn't I work as a seamstress for a production studio or even a costume coordinator, once I have some experience. I'm going to start looking for student movies to work on, that sort of thing to build a portfolio. And then once I have one together, why not? I can still write on the side, but then I could also be doing something that I really love while I do that. Maybe even make a career out of it.

So that's me right now. I'm now going to respond to all the updates and notices I've gotten in the time I've been away. I miss you all! And I hope life is treating you all nicely. :)

Or...

Oh US Governement, Part II

So in early April I got a phone call from the census. They want me to work again! And get a promotion! Yay! But then the reality of the job quickly set in. I was a Crew Leader, which meant I had to train and lead a motley band of 13 enumerators. All very cool people. But oh my goodness, the hours...

The Census has a policy of no overtime whatsoever. I don't even want to think about how many unpaid hours I had to put in to make sure my job was done correctly. But the good out of all of that was I made some good money and met some new people. So I won't complain too much.

Next up, I'm flying to Chicago for three weeks on Sunday. My mom had new replacement surgery a few weeks ago and my parents could use some help around the house. Not to mention driving. I'll basically be my mom's personal driver while I'm there. I'm just glad that I can help out. My dad's been doing all the work and he deserves a break.

So I'm going to take these three weeks and recharge a bit. No job search, hopefully a bit of writing and basically enjoying myself after stressing like crazy for the past two months.

Hope you're all doing well and I will certainly try to update more often. Maybe even write a fic or two...

My job with the census is over. The amount of fail is unbelievable. I was hired two weeks ago, mainly for a special project this week, followed by about 20 hours a week of work after that. Last week, I had 25 hours of paperwork and training. The training was mainly for the special project that's this week. And in my training session, there were about 40 people.

At the beginning of the last day of training, we're told that none of us would be needed after the special project next week. Which sucks. A number of people had turned down other work for the census. But, we all consoled ourselves that we'd have at least 24 hours of work next week.

However, five minutes before training ended, we find out that, actually, we don't need you Monday or Tuesday, but you'll still work Wednesday. We're not told when or where we'll be on Wednesday though. Just told to expect a phone call over the weekend telling us where to go.

It's now noon on Monday and I've gotten no phone call. And to make matters even worse, there are still signs all around my neighborhood advertising for census jobs.

So to sum everything up, the US census paid me $17 an hour for 25 hours for absolutely nothing. And people wonder why the federal government spends so much money.

*headdesk*

- I sort of have a job! It's only temporary, with the census, but it's at least a couple of paychecks. There's a chance that it might last a while, it might end next week. So the search for full time employment continues.

- However, I may be starting a small business. Which sort of terrifies me. I'm thinking of trying to sell some crochet baby things online. Set up a website, show a few examples and then have customers choose their own colors. It's in the planning stages. First thing I need to do is crochet some samples, which I've been working on.

- Update on my mom. She's going to have knee replacement surgery in early May. That pain hasn't gotten any better, even after two cortisone shots, so she's decided to go ahead with the surgery. I think she's making the right decision.

- Planning is going full speed ahead with Script Frenzy! I was going through my idea folder and found one that I really like. And it turns out I had developed it a bit already, so some of the prep work in already done. Lots to complete before April 1st, though, which is rapidly approaching!

I've decided I've moped around for too long about not writing. So I've decided to sign up for Script Frenzy, which starts in April. I've had a rom com idea in my head for a while, so this is the perfect chance to let it out. I have three weeks to prep and then April 1, go to town.

In a way, this might kill two birds with one stone. I mean, I can't be the only screenwriter in LA to sign up for this. Hopefully there will be some meet ups, and I can meet some new people. *crosses fingers*

This is a good thing. It's been a while since I've been excited about writing. I have a feeling this might do the trick.

Not a fun morning so far. Washing getting ready for the day in my bathroom when I realized that I could not turn off the cold water faucet in my sink. I tried everything I could think of and somehow managed to make it worse. Cause not only did the water not turn off, a horrible squeaky sound started. Frantically called my landlord. Left a message. Frantically called back 55 minutes later. The landlord came up and couldn't shut the water off either. but he promised that he'll have a solution in "1 to 4 hours."

And now the sink is playing mind games with me. The water will slow until it's just a thin stream, and maybe even stop for a couple of seconds. Only to start right back up again. And that noise is still there. Two and a half hours and counting.

I fear for my sanity.